Why hi, hello.
This post is a medley of sorts so try and bare with me as I word vomit all over your screen.
These past two years have been bonkers for me spirituality wise. As basic b as this sounds it all started with a simple, yet not so simple, surrendering to the universe. Once I wrapped my head around the fact that everything in this beautiful world is happening in Diving timing I experienced so many high vibrational shifts and awakenings.
I’m the type of person who likes control. My ego before this journey was OUT. OF. CONTROLL!
Like ew, how limiting.
I wanted to control every situation around me, every detail of my life and was totally stuck in the rut of the fast paced life and setting goals that I thought would make others proud but were not necessary what sparked a passion within myself. I was totally wrapped up in my (ego based) emotions and was obsessing over how effing single I was for the first time in my life…
It wasn’t until I learned that the universe is basically our bestie at the club when you’ve had maybe one to many gin and tonics and your potential boyfriend radar is malfunctioning! Some total d-bag whose CLEARLY been lying to his gf about where he is tonight approaches, you would normally NOT be vibing this kind of fuckery but he’s its laying it on thick, and your into it causes his jawline could cut glass and your ability to pick up on social cues drowned in your last drink. If she’s of true BFF stature your girls got your back and even though in the moment you want nothing more then to rip off his ten sizes to small deep v, She can see right through his charade and knows he’s a major bad news bear. See yah never Bryan with a “y”! She scoops you out of a regretful morning situation, gets you a water and some fries for the trauma and once you’ve chilled the eff out introduces you to her sexy co-worker that just showed up. Hello beautiful turn of events. – This my fine friends, is how the universe operates.
If we can all get past the fact I just related the wondrous miracles of the universe to an almost regrettable sexcapade id appreciate it a lot, thanx.
To put things in more mystical terms. Despite how bad we want something, or feel that it is right for us, the universe works in Divine timing. We have to silence the EGO and tap into the SOUL.
The Ego seeks to serve itself – what’s good for me?
The Soul seeks to serve others
The Ego seeks the outward recognition
The Soul seeks inner authenticity
The Ego seeks life as a competition – how can I get to the top?
The Soul sees life as a gift to cherish and enjoy
The Ego seeks to preserve self
The Soul seeks to preserve others
The Ego looks outward
The Soul looks inward
The Ego feels lack
The Soul feels abundance
The Ego is mortal
The Soul is eternal
The Ego is drawn to lust
The Soul is drawn to unconditional love
The Ego seeks wisdom
The Soul is wisdom
The Ego cherishes the prize
The Soul cherishes the journey
The Ego is the cause of attachment, and attachment is the root cause of all pain
The Soul is the cause of all healing
The Ego refuses to surrender
The Soul embraces surrender
The Ego seeks to be filled
The Soul is eternal wholeness
The Ego is me
The Soul is we
You guys get it.
Basically choose your thoughts like you choose your Instagram selfies.
Once you ditch that b of an ego and tap into your soul, its much easier to surrender to the Divine timing of the universe. When I first did this I had some ah-HA moments, planted some seeds of intention (mentally and physically had a new moon ritual where I planted seeds of intention so I can visually watch my manifestations grow!) My and was totally blown away when things started to come to fruition. I’m now on a whole new level of the high vibe life and at a place where I can’t even imagine going back to the way I was once living. I want to spread this knowledge to as many people as humanly possible so they can utilize their physical time of this earth living life for their greatest and highest good living the best damn life ever and be their own version of Gwyneth Paltrow (girls got life DOWN).
Lets cut some fluff of me getting drunk on my 25th birthday and getting all the moon phases tattooed by some sketch guy named rick at 2 am and get right to the hot deets. At the end of 2014 I was going through some major life changes, real Scorpio vibes. I was letting go of a lot of my life as I knew it, stale relationships, stale thought processes and I needed a fresh clean slate. So I bought a house and moved out of my parents Hans Solo #independantwoman with my tiny Pomeranian Pinot Grigio –yah, obvi my dog named after a wine, why wouldn’t he be? As liberating as that all was I still had felt this massive urning for to fill the void that was my feeling in lack of a life purpose. I spent about a year in limbo moping around, hating my job, swiping right far to many times on bumble, drinking far to many sex on the beach shots every Saturday night until I was just over it and decided to take major action.
Without getting into too much detail, I basically decided to get over feeling sorry for myself. All this negative energy focusing on the past and the lack in my life was being manifested back towards me in LACK, like duh. Life was happening NOW right there in front of me whether I was present for it or not, whether I was grateful for it or not. Instead of focusing on numbing my lows I started to focus on my little victories each morning and night. I would, and still do to this very day, write down three things in the morning that I’m grateful for, and three things at night that I’m grateful for/things that help make me the baddest bitch of all. Visually taking the time to physically sit a focus on nothing but the positivity in yourself and in your life for 5 – 10 min a day is a HUGE step and if you are there then you’re killin it!
No less then one week later, an amazing woman – who little did I know would soon become my spiritual mentor in the months to follow, got hired at my job to work directly with me. Once I started to appreciate the little victories in in my job that I had never taken the time to do before, the universe was like “Okay girl, I see you, here take some more blessings to add to that list of yours”
I’ll cut to the chase cause even im getting bored of my own voice here but this total peach of a woman opened my eyes to basically the world of meditation, moon rituals, kundalini yoga, reiki, all things astrology – like honestly we would spend full 8 hour days reading our natal charts and the transits of my latest bumble match to see if our 24 hour love was written in the stars!! Spoilers: we never were.
I had felt such a pull to start meditating more and more to the point where I would have visons come to me when I would ask for guidance, to speak to a few famous psychic mediums, and to explore all the alternative ways to ground myself and experience more of these CRAZY blissed out meditative visions that I was starting to experience… this shit is deep guys, I warned you.
Have you ever been in such a high vibrational state where you have this moment of just pure light and bliss, you are so overwhelmed with gratitude and and filled with unconditional love even though nothing majorly significant happened in your day…and you just cry tears of pure joy? I’m not talking like when your PMSing and the Coca Cola commercial on W is pulling at your heart strings. I’m talking pull on appreciate for life and all that you have. Where you can legit FEEL your high vibrational state run though your body and tingle down your spine, where you are just so effing aligned!! – The only way I can try to relate this emotion to someone who can picture it would be to say if imagine Ryan Gosling himself (or insert your #1 major heart throb- I was going to put J-beibs but then got embarrassed… J-BEIBS IS HOT GUYS OKAY WHATEVER. Moving on) Imagine if Ryan Gosling just declared his undying love for you and whisks you away to some fancy island in bora bora because he must have and wed you at once! Now take that feeling and multiply it by a million, and instead of the love coming from some random famous set of chiseled abs its self love coming from within. HONESTLY ITS MAGIC and y’all need to get on board.
Do you ever just like, trust in the universe so much that you just don’t give a fuck about the negative shit going on cause you like S’ALL GOOD, she got me. Honestly staying calm and having faith, is a superpower.
I’ve always felt that I’m deeply intuitive if not psychic and by having my natal chart read by many professional astrologers its been confirmed. I’m a sun sign Cancer (Hello emotional neediness), rising sign Scorpio (Hey aggressive passion and deep intensity, what’s up?), and moon Taurus (Hi vanity, there is a sale at Nordstrom, lets go!) with the majority in all my other planets in water signs. Emotions are no stranger to me. I use to hate feeling every single thing so very deeply but this has become a major strength of mine in my wise old age of 25! Honestly that was a joke, but I know a have such an old grandma soul its not even funny. Surface living has always been a total bore for me. I find I just vibe and gravitate towards people who have major depth and towards various situations of meaning.
Everything had to happen exactly has it did in this physical realm, to awake all the magic and miracles to your higher levels in the divine realm.
So there you have it, the spark notes version of my dive into the world of spirituality, energy work, essential oils (even though I never touched on this I’m SOOO going to in another post), crystal work, yoga, sage and smudging, mediums, moon work, and astrology… yupp that basically sums me up. Add in a juice cleanse, a frosted mimosa, blowout, and my Nordstrom wish list and you basically have my Wikipedia page.
I’m so looking forward to getting even more real with you guys, honestly I can’t wait!
Stay vibing high boss babes
Grateful for each and everyone of you!
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!